Whoever said love was easy and it just flows must have been a fool, maybe a fool in love, but a fool nonetheless.
Argh! Dealing with human beings outside your heart, even outside your world is hard enough, I mean someone steps on your toe, and you turn almost to hit them..then remember you need to be civil and you stop yourself. What then of someone in your heart? Those you don’t expect to hurt you but do so the most…and you honestly just want to kick them in the ass but can’t. Because you have to be civil, and understanding, and all other nonsense. Argh!
But the sad thing it’s not nonsense, how I wish it were. Everytime a million things run in my mind that I want to scream out but I don’t because well….I know its not right. And eating down anger in the name of understanding because you want this person in your life and not talking well, drains you.
The frustration. One minute your laughing, holding hands, playing then a single word and it all just changes. The dark skeleton. Expectations are crushed and without knowing you feel stabbed in the back and feel you had a hand in dealing your own sentence. Argh!
It gets easier I know. As you understand and learn the different characters but boy does it get on my last nerve!
All the same my little rantings aside, anyone with a solution please feel free… Lest I explode.